Fade

Sleeping like a ghost by your side
You don’t see me
But I am here
I have a pillow
So I must be here
My tears are wet
I must be here
You don’t hear me
But my screams wake me
From my own sleep they take me
Shoving pain in my throat
Muffling the sounds
You don’t feel me
But I feel…
Numb
But I feel
Crazy
But I feel
Like I fell asleep
And life is a sleeping pill
That never lets me sleep
I think there’s a picture somewhere
That shows that I once was
Someone to know
Holding a baby
No maybe it was a dog
Or maybe I was alone
But you could see me
Opaque, standing
I was laughing
Yes, in the picture
I was laughing
And you backed out of the frame
And I stood there alone
Falling asleep
Silently
Disappearing
Do you have that picture?
What was I holding?
What was I laughing at?
I want to remember

©2008-Michelle Hix